Hehe, I am always reassured by how similar our value systems are :> :> (That is such a weird thing to say, I know.) Mercy was a word I was really fascinated with at one point-- just the sound of it; 'like an arrow through the heart', yeah. I think some of the major frustrations in my life is people insisting on 'justice' while forgetting mercy; it's worst because people keep thinking justice = find the 'bad guy' and blame him for everything, case closed. That really pisses me off, but what bothers me more is that most people don't see anything wrong with it. Of course, it's also bothersome when my definition of 'compassion' diverges from other people's; like, for me it's more a question of empathy & understanding-and-letting-go, whereas for a lot of people it's justice again, somehow, with 'only compassion for the right (victim) person in the right (justified) manner'. That whole 'deserving it' thing. Annoying.
MAGIC. Yeah :> Reminds me of the last panel of Books of Magic, the mini-series, where Tim says that word. It might be my favorite word (and concept) in like, the universe :D Better than art, better than poetry, better than nature, better than love. MAGIC. I know what you mean about the intimacy of it in fanfic; I haven't used it much in fic 'cause I don't write plotty stuff much, but I think if I did finish my more fanciful stories, they would've been revealing. I think in original stuff, I do write about it -because- it's so intimate & revealing of self, a mirror of desire-- if one uses writing in a cathartic manner, magic rivals dreams as a way to symbolize one's subconscious self. I think writing dream sequences gets a similar effect but is often 'too obvious' in a different way; magic is active rather than passive (dreams), also, and has the power of desire manifest, so it's dangerous in that sense, addictive & beguiling. I think a lot of people show how unimaginative or predictable their dreams are by the fact that their magic is boring.
I do the experiencing-through-memory thing too, though I use writing rather than mementos; meaning, I write it out, one way or the other, if it's important to me. I can be fully present, though, but yeah, when I try to be or when I'm not emotionally threatened by the presence. Like... how would you say you were when we were talking recently? I'm curious about this :> I think there are percentages; not 100%, but somewhat present. I don't think I've ever -really- been 100% with another person, but then it's just sort of difficult because another person muddies my emotions & reactions a lot.
Hee. Meta-addicts; yeah... something like over-intellectual? It's almost on the tip of my tongue, ahhh.
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Date: 2006-04-28 12:33 pm (UTC)MAGIC. Yeah :> Reminds me of the last panel of Books of Magic, the mini-series, where Tim says that word. It might be my favorite word (and concept) in like, the universe :D Better than art, better than poetry, better than nature, better than love. MAGIC. I know what you mean about the intimacy of it in fanfic; I haven't used it much in fic 'cause I don't write plotty stuff much, but I think if I did finish my more fanciful stories, they would've been revealing. I think in original stuff, I do write about it -because- it's so intimate & revealing of self, a mirror of desire-- if one uses writing in a cathartic manner, magic rivals dreams as a way to symbolize one's subconscious self. I think writing dream sequences gets a similar effect but is often 'too obvious' in a different way; magic is active rather than passive (dreams), also, and has the power of desire manifest, so it's dangerous in that sense, addictive & beguiling. I think a lot of people show how unimaginative or predictable their dreams are by the fact that their magic is boring.
I do the experiencing-through-memory thing too, though I use writing rather than mementos; meaning, I write it out, one way or the other, if it's important to me. I can be fully present, though, but yeah, when I try to be or when I'm not emotionally threatened by the presence. Like... how would you say you were when we were talking recently? I'm curious about this :> I think there are percentages; not 100%, but somewhat present. I don't think I've ever -really- been 100% with another person, but then it's just sort of difficult because another person muddies my emotions & reactions a lot.
Hee. Meta-addicts; yeah... something like over-intellectual? It's almost on the tip of my tongue, ahhh.